Being A Spinster!!!

I lean over the window-pane,
And glance along the below lane,
I take a small sip from my glass of wine,
And silently wish someone was mine!


When I had the time to choose a mate,
I never bothered and left it to my fate,
Every man that came my way,
I always ensured he moved away.


Not that I had never felt the same,
But I thought being in love was lame,
I wish I had never imposed this ban,
Without an exception, on every man!


Now I wish I had someone all mine,
Who could share with me, this glass of wine!
Even if he were away, several hundred miles,
He would at least call me, giving me smiles!


As I see the clouds getting ready to rain,
I wish I had someone to share my pain,
Someone with whom in these rains I'd drench,
And on turning cold, his fist I'd clench!


I see the old couple in the neighborhood,
They seem together forever, since childhood,
Wouldn't it be wonderful to have a companion?
Who'd ride the bike of life, with you as a pillion!


The young couple is dancing in the rainy street,
And they seem to be enjoying it, like a great treat,
While I think I'm going to be alone every night,
I hold my wine glass, all the more tight!


I wish I gave a thought when the world said,
Staying alone could feel like life is unpaid,
I wish I took things in the right sense then,
When I had a space in the hearts of many men!


But I chose to take the road that was less taken,
Why didn't at the right time, my mind awaken?
Who's going to accept me now with these wrinkles and sags?
Apart from this bottle of wine and a few fags?


Wish I realized how important it was to have someone,
To wait for him to come home, to be his loved one!
When I hear the young lady upstairs moan,
With all my senses, I deeply mourn!


Who will forever take care of my needs?
Who will gift me necklace of metal and beads?
Will I always have to let my thoughts remain unspoken?
The glass accidentally slips from my hand, it is broken!


The fall of the glass, makes me utter a scream,
Oh! I was sleeping, and this was just a dream.
It is time hurry up and get ready for my new date,
And I know my nightmare is not going to be my fate.

Cloudy night sky...

Its been long since i was eager to spend some time of a night lying on a terrace and watching the sky! Thankfully, after a long week of hectic daily schedules, i convinced Archana to spend some time relaxing on the terrace of our hostel. Both of us climbed up around 2 a.m. last night. No, we weren't just the two of us! We had a lot of addictives with us. She had her phone, i had my iPod, we had some delicious food which was freshly delivered. After hogging on to our late-night meal, we lay our tired bodies on a bed-sheet which we had spread on the terrace floor. She clung to her phone and i stuffed the ear-plugs listening to my favourite numbers. And finally, i started my much-awaited Sky-watching! The ambience was just perfect!! :)

The sky looked appealing, despite a complete cover of thick clouds. Various formations of moving clouds gave my imaginations some wings. Wild animals, fairies, cupid, God's eye, huge teddy bear... ah! an endless list- no exaggeration!! At times, the clouds let the sky be a bit visible and i could see tiny stars twinkling bright, until the clouds covered them again. Now, another addiction took over me- food for thought. I somehow start relating things to life, credit/blame the belief that everything happens for a reason and every little thing could have a deeply implied meaning.

The clouds hide the twinkling stars like a curtain. And yes, this curtain falls right in front of our eyes. Some times, clouds hide the stars so well that we forget that the sky is not made up of clouds! We forget about all the shining stars, we forget about the moon, all that we can see is the cluster of clouds. Yeah, its about the sky, but this happens in life too. A curtain falls before our eyes during various phases in life and we forget what life actually is. We start believing that life is all about the few things that we can see right in front of us.

The clouds of bad experiences make us forget about how much good life has in store for us. The clouds of temporary desires cover the permanently twinkling stars of greater virtues. False-friends cover our sight so well that we ignore our true-friends. A boy-friend/girl-friend proves a reason enough to lie to our families, or may be even rebel against them. A short-term cloud of attraction hides the stars of long-term committments. Clouds of immediate income overpower the planning for long-term benefits. The cluster of clouds of incidents while blaming each other makes us forget completely about the beautiful twinkling moments of love and understanding we have had with our loved ones.

Thick clusters of cloud cover our sight, but when the clouds move slowly- getting thinner, we get a slight glimpse of the stars and the brightly shining moon. Yes, the clouds are gone, now the sky is clear. And the moon has lit us up with a lot of realisations. Those realisations which enlighten our lives, probably, at least till the next cluster of clouds bring another phase of short-sightedness.

Realizing its 3 a.m., we rose up to return to our rooms and i couldn't fail to notice that we were completely moon-lit! What an hour of sky-watching!! :)