Lifeless Existence!

I have learned to hide my tears,

And how to lie about my fears,

I have learned to cry alone,

Walk, eat and stay alone!

I have learned to bear pain,

Even if there's little to gain,

I have learned to be strong,

Even if i know it's wrong!

I have learned to kill things,

Like inner voice and feelings,

I have learned to make peace,

With life that has no peace!

I have learned to gain pace,

In this meaningless rat race,

I have learned to keep mum,

To be stone-cold and numb!

I have learned to laugh out loud,
Of course it's fake, but i'm proud,
I have learned to sing a chanty,
With a heart - hollow and empty!

I have learned to bury my head,

In this crowd that's widespread,

I have learned to live my life,

Without even feeling alive!